Crying, pleading, and at times begging God to answer my prayers has been the rhythm of much of my prayer life. "Where are You God?" I would often quip! Silence! Darkness! I simply did not understand why my loving God was not hearing me.
Truth be told, He was. His loving and attentive ear was hearing my cry to Him day in and day out even though I felt as if He wasn't.
Here are a few lessons I have learned through my years of prayer and intercession.
1. Just because I don't feel great doesn't mean God has abandoned me: God is way bigger than my feelings or emotions on any particular day. My feelings do not change God. He hears my cry when I am feeling good or bad.
2. God answers my prayers in His time: I live in time but God lives in eternity. I do understand that I am an eternal being living in the temporal bound by time and space... I get locked up in the day to day activity of my life instead of seeing the big picture. God does see the big picture because He is eternal. God knows best and He always answers in His time. And His timing is always perfect.
3. God doesn't always answer my prayers in the way I want them answered: I sometimes give God some excellent suggestions which He doesn't always adhere to. It amazes me because I feel as if I give God some great ideas. I have to remind myself God sees the end from the beginning and He knows how best to answer my prayers. I also know that God is significantly cleverer than I am!
4. God sometimes doesn't answer my immediate prayer because He sees the whole story: I have asked God for things along the way and those prayers have not been answered. From this perspective I thank God that they weren't because He saw the full picture and answering those immediate prayers would have changed the entire pathway I have been on. I didn't understand it then, but I do now!
My friend, if you are struggling with your prayer life I am here to encourage you. Don't give up! God's answer will come in His way and His time. My heart is filled with thanksgiving as I reflect on the faithful and loving God I serve. Keep praying, keep trusting, His answer will come!
I am and always will be,
recklessly abandoned, ruthlessly committed and in relentless pursuit of Jesus,